Toxic Independence.

Sometimes i rasa i ni toxically independence person. Like, i want to make sure before i let someone-in and spend my life together with, benda ‘basic’ tu i dah achieved. Macam i dah ada rumah sendiri ke, etc. Yahh, pelik kan. Benda yg patut lelaki yg fikir and work for it turns to be something yg i nak achieve sendiri.

Thats what makes me who i am today. I tak suka sangat nak depend 100% on lelaki but it doesnt mean i dont need men. Yes I enjoy being alone, but i cant deny the fact that men n women need each other. Also me. 

Someone ask ‘Why not you working together with someone you love ?’

'Dah lambat lah awak, umur dah berapa'

Kita kan ada masing masing punya phase :)

Tak ada yg terlalu lambat ataupun terlalu cepat.

And actually, kebanyakan lelaki takut someone yg too independent ni 🥹 

Either diorg give up nak faham atau diorg malas nak tunggu dah. 🫤

But the real one will always know how to handle so-called-independent person ni. They dont choose to just walk away. They will try to understand, even berdikari bersama sama. Yeah we need partner yg bersama sama berdikari dan struggle untuk achieve something without ruined each other life 😅 bcs at the end of the day, we know how exhausted it will be. And masa tu of coz we will need each other more.

Sebab tu i just let someone go if they want to. Even if dia pernah jd someone yg paling la kita sayang kan. Sebab memang betul, the right one will stay. 

Semua benda yg i buat sekarang, i do it for me, and to ease my future. 

How blessed if someone truly see it from my point of view :)

Tapi kan, even i rasa i ni terlalu berdikari, Tapi bila ternampak lipas atau anjing, i tetap akan lariii 😆😆